我手写我心。

2011-12-28T07:41:00.001-08:00

It's been a while since I've last updated my blog.
Despite having a tumblr I still prefer using blogger.
I guess that's cos I feel overexposed on tumblr?
At least no one really visits my blog (I think.) so I feel safer airing my thoughts here.

Christmas have past and new year's coming.
I've had a really enjoyable christmas with my family and the shooters.

Heading to Taiwan tomorrow and welcoming 2012 there.
Hope the next year will be a better year than this,
especially since I've had a pretty lousy year with all the mad mad rush and preparation for A Levels.
And I hope in the new year I would be a better daughter, better sister and a better friend.
I've felt as if this year I havent don't anything for anyone.
Life this year has pretty much been about me me and me and I feel rather guilty towards my brother as he needed to cook for me and whatnot during my exams period.
What sort of elder sister am I if I need my younger brother to take care of me?
And I resolve to be a more patient towards my parents, especially since I have done nothing but vex them with my frequent temper tantrums.

And you.
When I return home next January, I believe I will be over you.
Afterall, 10 days in a foreign country, what's there to still hold on to?

2011-11-05T19:00:00.001-07:00

Its been a while since I've posted here, isn't it?

A levels are in three days time,
And frankly speaking I'm not too sure exactly how prepared am I.
It's kind scary actually,
knowing that here will be gaps in my knowledge and still going for the As.
I'm really starting to regret those times where I didn't take my studying serious.
Like history, I can pass my history without really studying for it.
But really, is a mere C good enough?
Feels like for the past two years I have been really short-sighted.
I'm only focused on passing and not scoring.
And I'm really regretting it right now.

But in by any case, its too late right now and the only thing I can do is to stay focused.
(easier said than done really /wry smile)

I need to keep telling myself,
no regrets.
Wish me luck.

Why have we become like this?

2011-08-30T03:48:00.000-07:00

2011-07-10T08:23:00.001-07:00

Disappointment.

How much more can I take?

2011-05-30T06:04:00.000-07:00

It starts today.

No more procrastinating,

no more wasting my time.

I've wasted enough time this year.

No more thinking about nonsense and what not.

Today I promise myself that no matter what I do,

I'm going to put myself first.

I'm going to put my studies first.

Forget about everything else.

Yes it starts today.

2011-05-10T07:50:00.000-07:00

Darren, why so perfect?? <3

I think I have a soft spot for guys who can play a musical instrument and sing.

Especially if they can sing.

I think I was smiling like some fool while watching this.

But hey can you blame me, it's Darren Criss!

His voice is so dreamy~ ^^

("Let you put your haaaands on me..." *swoons*)

Okay okay, enough of my spazzing.

Back to my mundane history SBQ.

2011-05-10T06:02:00.001-07:00

Dianna Agron's voice is really nice here.

All the while I didn't like her voice that much, to me her voice sounded really thin.

And I've always thought that a duet with Lea Michele wouldn't work out cause her voice lack the power that Lea's voice had.

Turns out I was wrong. (:

Oh and Dianna is gorgeous.

CCA standown is tomorrow,

and I'm a little reluctant.

During Nationals season, I kept wanting it to end quickly.

But now that it's drawing to an end, I finally realized that shooting was probably the key reason I pulled myself through every week.

Without shooting, I feel kinda empty.

Perhaps its time I let go.

2011-04-21T08:42:00.000-07:00

It's over.

3years of my shooting life finally concluded today.

A Div.

To say I was disappointed was an understatement,

I wasn't aiming to win any medal because right from the start I knew that we had little if not no chance whatsoever.

Yet somehow in my subconscious mind I expected more from myself.

During debrief today,

when Ms Fau mentioned putting in a 110%,

I started to question myself,

did I really put in a 110% for A div?

I remembered reflecting one night upon shooting,

and I remember a little voice in my head telling me

that all I fought so hard for will come to naught.

Why bother if all it is going to lead to is heartbreak?

Today, during my shoot,

that doubt came back again.

361.

Perhaps I should be contented that at the very least I didn't fall below a 360.

Yet then again I had wanted so badly to shoot a new highscore,

something that I would be proud of getting even if we didn't win any medal.

Yet before the shoot I promised myself that no matter what happens,

no regrets.

I won't regret anything,

joining shooting, switching to pistol, going for the China trip, switching back to rifle.

These 3 years in MJShooting have been an amazing experience for me.

I've made new friends, strengthened friendships and discovered things about myself that I've never known before.

For that,

I am thankful.

Thankful for the 2008 seniors for guiding me through that start of my shooting journey.

Thankful for knowing the 2009 batch and forging strong friendships with them.

And I'm really thankful for meeting the 2010 batch.

Thank you for making me like I belonged, like I was a part of you guys.

If there were really any regrets,

I must confess that I feel guilty towards to pistol girls,

especially Joyce.

I'm sorry that I wasn't able to fight alongside them till the very end.

I'm sorry that I chose to give up pistol just to ensure that I don't get thrown out of the school team.

I admit,

at the point of time when Ms Fau offered me the decision to switch,

a part of me wanted to reject her offer, to choose to stay on with the pistol girls.

But the rational part of me, the logical me chose to switch because I clearly know that I don't stand a chance against Kimberley.

In any case,

it's over.

There's no room for regrets,

and I'm not one who will regret anything.

2011 is a letdown.

2012 will be different.

I believe the next batch will be able to save the club,

as long as we put our heart and soul into building their foundations.

It doesn't matter if we have failed this year,

after all mistakes are made so that we can improve.

After A Divs comes another Big A.

A Levels.

Let's work hard together to ace it.

2011-04-11T06:11:00.000-07:00

Got back all my papers for MBTs today.

Math S

Econs E

Lit D

GP B

Hist D

I can't really say that I'm disappointed because there are other people who did far worse than me.

But I am really indignant about my math grade.

Math was probably the only subject that I really studied.

Yet it was the only subject that I failed.

How ironic.

Today's prep talk in math lecture only seem to add on to the guilt I feel.

Who am I kidding,

the paper was manageable.

It wasn't as bad as what we made it out to be.

It only seemed challenging to me simply because I wasn't prepared enough.

So in the end, I have no one but myself to blame.

Moreover, I had one more year compared to others,

yet I only managed to get an S.

S may be better than U, but no matter what, S is still a fail.

If the MBTs were A Levels standard, does that mean I'm going to get an S at the As?

Is that what I wasted one year of my life for?

I keep thinking to myself,

there has to be reason for my decision to want to redo my J1 year with a different stream.

Last year was a second chance for me.

Yet looking at my MBTs it feels as if I haven't really grabbed hold of that chance.

Shooting is no excuse, it's not as if I have to train every single day.

There are no excuses for me, none.

Because the days that I were free, I had not made full use of them.

If people are able to juggle CCA and studies, why can't I?

Thank goodness there is no banding for MBTs.

At least I still have one more exam to prove my worth.

Getting into LT4 isn't enough.

To get that A that I really need, I need to squeeze into LT5 no matter what it takes.

And I believe that if I want it bad enough, I will get it.

2011-03-31T07:22:00.000-07:00

Got back full GP MBT paper today.

Paper 1 29/50

Paper 2 35/50

B grade! ^^

My paper 2 felt totally unreal.

I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me!

Haha, it's quite satisfying to finally be able to break through the C barrier that I wasn't able to even break last year with that easy paper 2.

Well at least now I have one not-so-ugly grade for my MBT result slip.

I just pray that I can pass just one other H2 subject or something.

Then at least the result slip won't look so terrible.

2011-03-23T05:16:00.000-07:00

Somehow this is kinda addictive.

And yeah Chord Overstreet does this song better than Bieber.

Just that his dancing was a little LOL at some parts.

(Then again it's the original dance from the MV, soooooooo...)

And this!

This song kept playing in my head for the whole of the math paper today!

MBTs ended today.

And I had a feeling that I screwed up most of it.

Like today's math paper was super demoralizing.

During Promos I was very sure that I will pass the paper.

But today's paper....

In any case,

MBTs over and what's done is done.

If I haven't done well for this exam,

there's always MYEs and Prelims to chiong for!

Hwaiting! ^^

2011-03-14T06:25:00.000-07:00

I'm not a cheerful person. I just laugh a lot.

-Lady Nijo, Top Girls.

2011-03-06T02:26:00.000-08:00

A level results were released on Friday.

And looking at everyone's faces,

I feel kind of melancholic.

I was supposed to be collecting my results on that day,

be it good or bad,

I was supposed to.

Watching everyone I know getting their results back,

and planning their next step.

I keep thinking, if I did better during 2009 promos,

I would be there too.

If I has listened to my heart and chose the correct subject combination right from the very beginning,

would I be up there too?

Then on my way home,

Jiahui's face popped up in my head.

Poor Jiahui.

All she ever worked for was that A level cert,

yet she left before she could even get to reap the fruits of her labour.

Make me wonder where is the fairness in things?

I'm feeling the stress now.

I watch people I know,

going up to shake Ms Lai's hand.

And envy bubbles up in me,

I want to be in that position too.

I vowed to myself back in 2009 that no matter what I do,

I will get up there

and I will prove everyone who has ever looked down on me wrong.

Yet sneaking thoughts of doubt enter my thoughts at night,

how sure am I that I will make it at the end of the day?

Promos mean nothing, and its not as if I got spectacular results for promos.

And there's shooting.

Being tossed around like a ball is no joke,

I swear.

And I get so frustrated when I don't perform up to expectations.

What ever the hell happened to my one year foundation?

I felt happy yesterday over that one tiny accomplishment.

Yet when I got home and reflected,

what am I so happy about?

It's just one mock comp.

And for goodness sake that score I got was pathetic,

nothing worth being happy about.

I may be able to beat her this time,

but can I beat her the second round?

I do think I'm really greedy at times.

I want the best of both worlds.

yet I clearly know that having one would mean having to give up the other.

I thought I could be mature enough,

but apparently my pride overpowers my rationality.

I need someone to slap me awake.

To force me to see the futility of what I am doing.

Perhaps only then will I be able to wake up.

2011-02-07T05:19:00.000-08:00

LIKE OMG FINALLY.

A version of I Wanna Love You without the girl in between.

(Yeah, Eunhae fan. So sue me.)

And the pinky promise at the end was just too cute ^^

Moreoever, the last line of the song is I promise my everything will belong to you.

Awwwww.

And I think it's hilarious when Hyuk and Hae were trying to get that girl to go away and she refuses to leave until some random guy had to pull her away.

Now where is Noohoo when I need her?!

2011-02-07T04:21:00.000-08:00

Happy Lunar New Year!

(belated one tho. Hehs)

It's the rabbit year~

希望我们今年能“兔”飞猛进!

(yes I know it's overused, but can you blame me?)

Well it's Monday which means my CNY holiday is over,

and school's back to haunt me.

At least I'm well-rested to face anything that's going to come my way!

(for now.)

2011-01-29T06:50:00.000-08:00

Farewell 900576.

It was nice while it lasted,

and you really did make my shooting life more meaningful.

Never doubt that I loved you,

but really it's time to move on.

Being with you makes me feel so incompetent all the time,

it's like asking a fish to fly or something.

I'm sorry for abandoning you.

Hope the next person who gets you will cherish you and treat you better.

After turning one big round,

I'm back at where I've started.

I'm back at rifle.

Feels like I have been taken on a ride or something.

But today, I realized the feeling of shooting rifle and shooting pistol is vastly different.

Somehow I realized how much I missed shooting rifle,

despite hating how hot and troublesome the suit is.

Maybe I'm just saying this because I just started today.

Maybe I'll missed pistol after a while.

But all I know is that,

I've made a choice,

and I'm not going to look back.

2011-01-28T07:12:00.000-08:00

I'm tired.

Literally and metaphorically.

Literally,

because of school and shooting.

It's like living a life that has no life.

Study, shoot, study, sleep.

(and the cycle repeats)

It's like really draining my energy,

and every Fri is like a complete rest/relaxing day for me.

I finally understand the big deal about TGIF.

Metaphorically,

because I no longer know where am I heading in shooting.

I don't even know what am I shooting now.

And Ms Fau isn't making things any easier.

(Tho I understand that she probably is trying too)

I just hope she can faster make up her mind,

then I can at least know where I will be.

It's really annoying when you don't even know what you're supposed to be doing for the next training.

At least today was a little bit of fun in my otherwise no-life life.

So I'm contented.

For now.

2011-01-24T06:03:00.000-08:00

Friday's 3hr history paper.

Today's math and econs test.

I survived!

Yay!

Short day of school for me tomorrow.

End at 1255.

But I need to prepare for Econs presentation on Wed.

And finish up my lit tutorial.

2011-01-17T02:10:00.000-08:00

Jia Hui passed away last night.

At the age of 19,

she left all of us.

And the worse thing was,

I didn't even get to say goodbye.

I got the news from Xing Hua today.

She had been ill for the past year,

but I hadn't expected her to leave so suddenly.

I kept thinking about her today.

And at some point of time,

I got angry.

Angry at how God could just take her away so suddenly.

Angry at how she had fought so hard and yet in the end it all amounted to nothing.

If God had intended for her to end like this,

why put her through all the disappointment and pain?

Why make her repeat her J1 year?

Why make her advance to J2, then strike her with this illness?

She had been so strong then, choosing to forgo her As last year to retake this year.

All because she didn't want to just take A levels for the sake of taking them.

Even if it meant spending 4 years in JC.

Yet, in the end she got nothing.

And as a friend, I feel terrible.

Supposed to visit her on Friday,

yet I chose not to go in the end just because no one was free to accompany me.

Could have sent her off today,

but didn't because of school.

I'm such a terrible friend,

and the worse was that Xing Hua had told me that it's okay,

and Jia Hui will understand because she's Jia Hui.

And that only makes me feel worse.

2011-01-14T03:14:00.000-08:00

After yesterday,
I'm totally convinced that at the rate I'm going,
if school doesn't kill me, I'll end up killing myself.

Apart from that, I still do enjoy school somehow.
The sudden need to rush rush rush makes me happy.
Maybe I'm just masochistic like that.

(I think I won't be saying that come March. Hehs.)

When I climb the stairs and turn the key,
oh please be there
still in love with me.

2011-01-10T05:56:00.001-08:00

It's only the first day of my JC2 life.
And I already feel like dying.
Gosh.

2011-01-06T05:55:00.000-08:00

So I was browsing through this really old folder of music.
And I found the entire soundtrack to Wicked,
which surprised me as I don't think I've really listened to it.
The only song I recognized in the entire soundtrack was Defying Gravity,
and that's because of Glee.
After listening to it, I fell in love with this particular song - For Good.

Lyrics:

GLINDA
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

ELPHABA
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:

GLINDA
Because I knew you:

BOTHI have been changed for good

ELPHABA
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

GLINDA
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

BOTH
And none of it seems to matter anymore

GLINDA ELPHABA
Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown
From orbit as it Off it's mooring
Passes a sun, like By a wind off the
A stream that meets Sea, like a seed
A boulder, half-way Dropped by a
Through the wood Bird in the wood

BOTH
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?

GLINDA
And because I knew you:
ELPHABA
Because I knew you:

BOTH
Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good.

2011-01-03T06:27:00.000-08:00

First proper post in 2011.

I've never really been one to stick to tradition,
so I don't really have any exact new year's resolution.
Looking back at 2010,
I must say that it has been a fulfilling year.
New friends, new environment, new experience.
Somehow, 2010 have served as a year of redemption for me as well.
It kinda felt like I had used 2010 to redeem what I had done wrong in 2009.

All I pray for is for 2011 to be a better year compared to 2010.
I'm fully aware of the new challenges I have to face (A lvls, A divs)
I need as much courage and determination possible to pull through,
and I really hope that at the end of 2011,
I can safely say that I have lived this year with no regrets.

2011.
New year;
New challenges;
New me.

2011-01-01T01:30:00.000-08:00

The thing I hate about holidays and travelling - unpacking.

2010-12-22T05:33:00.000-08:00

Leaving for China tomorrow!
No sleep tonight cos my flight is at 6am.
Which means that I need to be at the airport by 4am.
Which means I need to wake up at 2am.
Might as well don't sleep lor.

2010-12-19T23:50:00.001-08:00

I might be just a little obsessed with this song.
Darren Criss (Blaine) is so charming!
(But alas, he's short.)

2010-12-19T21:29:00.000-08:00

Few more days before I fly to China again,
this time with my family.

Somehow the feel is different?
And I don't know what's wrong with me.
Even packing felt different,
the excitement isn't there.

But no matter what,
I'm going to enjoy myself with my family!
Looking forward to all the stuff I can do there.

In the midst of doing my hist assignment.
It's so annoying!
And there are some really enthusiastic people who have already posted their assignment online.

There's supposed to be a Christmas party today with my friends,
but a lot of them aren't able to make it.
Hence, it's postponed.
(Postponing it means that I won't be able to attend as I'll be in China,
but oh well.)

Need to head down to school tomorrow to transfer weapons to Safra.

I realized I've been spending a lot of time with the shooting people recently.
Take last week for example,
I spent 3 out of 5 days with them.
Makes me feel as if I'm neglecting the other people in my life.

Met up with Yuen Mun and Sherlyn yesterday.
We didn't do much,
just walked around the BookFest at Suntec and had dinner together.
YM passed me my long overdue birthday present,
and I must say that it came as a surprise.
To think that during her As she still bothered to get me a birthday present.
And that present itself held a lot of meaning for me.

My mum once told me that friends made during school days are most precious,
and worth holding on to.
But looking at them all progress to the next stage of their lives,
how am I going to hold on to them?

2010-12-14T22:15:00.000-08:00

Christmas is coming!
All I want for Christmas is you~~~

This year's Christmas will be spent overseas again.
Last year was in Hong Kong,
and this year, China!

Which means I have to give everyone their Christmas presents before I fly.
Anyone wanna go Christmas shopping with meeeeeee~

This week is a busy week!
Tomorrow going to visit Darren at the hospital,
then pop down Safra to kaypo while the rest go for their safety orientation/course.
(I bet Joyce is excited cause she might see Jialer. Hehe.)
And Fri is KTV! ^^

There's like a Hist assignment due on 21Dec but I can't bring myself to even start doing it.
I need to start soon,
otherwise I'll be like rushing it last minute.

And I hate the feeling of needing to 收拾 my 心情.

2010-12-12T08:25:00.000-08:00

And I miss you already.

2010-12-09T19:34:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to miss the days in China already.
Today when I woke up,
this first thing I thought of was,
"Oh no I'm late!"
only to realize I'm already home.

To think I was so reluctant to go in the first place.
Given another chance,
I would choose to go without a second thought.

I promised myself no regrets,
and I guess I did it.
No regrets whatsoever for the trip.
(Okay maybe I regretted not buying a teddy bear, I wanted to steal Joyce's bear!)

2010-12-08T07:05:00.000-08:00

Last night in China.
Heading back to Singapore tomorrow.

These past 14days have been a totally new experience for me.
I could actually see the scores moving up, albeit slowly.
From shooting 297 for the 1st comp (I have no idea what happened) to finally shooting 343 today,
I must say that I myself was flabbergasted at the huge difference.

But I'm aware that it may not truely be an improvment.
Most of the time, I feel that I'm just really lucky.
I could just anyhow pull the trigger and somehow the shot would still end up within the black.
Luck does play a part I guess,
but I sincerely hope that the improvment made was not a mere luck thing,
but a reflection of an improvment in my ability.

Looking at the 1st comp results,
I bet my socks that all the coaches thought I won't make it.
I guess I proved them wrong?

2010-11-25T05:42:00.000-08:00

It's tomorrow.
Make or break depends on this 2weeks in China.

I believe that if I want it bad enough,
I will get it.

2010-11-24T04:31:00.000-08:00

Amazingly, I met Meng Yee in the bus on my way home from a pointless and silly dance prac for open house.
She looks so different it's stunning.
Like she's so much prettier, and there's this sense of confidence that I can sense from her.
Confidence that didn't used to be present in her back in the sec sch days.
It amazes me how different she is, and if she hadn't came up to me to say hi,
I probably would not have recognized her.
I guess JC life did really have a immense impact on her,
and I really admire her courage to make the decision to leave JC.
Not just her, but Nicole too.
To me, it seems that they are able to accomplish what would be the impossible for me.
Meng Yee had the confidence in herself to believe that she will be able to enter SIM.
Nicole had the courage to opt out of the entire rat race itself.
Me?
Looking at them, I feel kinda pathetic.
I clearly know that I would never have the courage to do something like that.
I'll be the typical Singaporean student;
struggle through the various school examinations,
struggle through the GCE A levels,
then what?
Pray and hope for the best.

Makes me wonder,
at the end of the day,
what exactly is all that struggling for?

Meeting Meng Yee also reminded me,
that everytime I meet someone that I haven't met in a long time,
it's usually them recognizing me and approaching me.
Am I that recognizable (didn't change at all)
or am I just forgetful and blur?
Like really, every one of them would come up to me and say hi,
and I would take me a few seconds to realize who they are.
Maybe it's just me getting old.
):

China trip in 2days.
I am really worried now.
I constantly ask myself,
is this the right decision?
Am I making the right choice?
I keep telling myself to not look back.
But I keep worrying that this trip will be a futile waste.

Sometimes,
I think I think too much.

2010-11-19T07:01:00.000-08:00

Extra lectures are a waste of time.
I stoned/slept through econs.
And fell asleep halfway through the movie in lit.
I think the extra lectures now are kind of pointless.
Monday till 5.30pm ><
Hope I survive.

Mock competition next week.
I feel stressed out now.
Today's shots weren't great.
82 83 85 85
><
Totally not prepared lah.
HOW?!

2010-11-13T07:57:00.000-08:00

I love this song!
It's not a new song, but not old either.
Okay depends on how you look at it lah.
Came out last year,
it was the theme song for the movie Yougisha X no Kenshin (Devotion of Suspect X),
which was the sequel to the J-drama, Tantei Galileo.
SaiAi (最爱) by KOH+
Written/composed by Fukuyama Masaharu (the guy in the back playing the guitar)
Fukuyama Masaharu did sing this song too, and I loved his MV,
but I think Shibasaki Kou's version sounded nicer.
The song was written for her after all.

I happened to just chance upon this song again as I was listening to my iPod.
And I had the urge to just put this performance here.
I guess I really am bored.

Holiday lectures start next week,
and it's the start of the hell journey to the big A.
Ugh I'm dreading it.

2010-11-12T06:08:00.000-08:00

It's friday!
And surprisingly there's no training today.

The past week had been interesting.
Save for Wed's training.
Dinner had been hilarious.
I had no idea Tanyang was so funny.

Met up with Nicole on Wed afternoon for coffee.
She seems happy, at least to me.
I sincerely hope she's happy.
Somehow, for so long that I've known her,
there's this general feel that she's not entirely happy.
So I really wish that she can be happy.

A levels just started.
The thought that I have just nice one year before I face it myself scare me.
I may have made it through Promos this time,
but how sure am I that I can tackle the As?

And there's shooting.
Somehow everytime I shoot,
I feel that I'm not good enough.
That even any new shooter will do much much better than me.
And I don't even stand a chance.

My class is pretty complicated too.
Something just isn't right,
and I can feel it.
I really miss 304 like crazy.
We may not be that bonded,
but the people are simpler.
Too much suspicion hurts my brain.

There's training this Monday.
And briefing for China trip.
27Nov is just round the corner.
Will I be ready then?

For now,
let's throw caution to the wind,
alright?

2010-11-08T06:03:00.000-08:00

~~We might end up doing well.~~
One, two, three, let's ~~begin~~ end this.

2010-11-08T05:54:00.001-08:00

We ~~might~~ end up doing well.
One, two, three, let's begin.

2010-11-01T07:39:00.000-07:00

I'm officially 18!
Gosh I feel so old now. :S

Had an awesome day today with my classmates who celebrated my birthday with me.
Sang K, and had cake!
And it's chocolate cake!
(Yums ^^)

Had dinner with my family and walked around Tampines Mall abit.
Bought quite a lot of stuff due to having discount because it's my birthday (:

Meeting Tiara for movie tomorrow night at Orchard!
Hehs, how could I say no to a free movie right?

Big thank you to everyone out there for their well-wishes!
So sweet of them to remember,
especially Yee Ee.
He's the only one from my primary school days who remembered my birthday.

Next year will be a huge challenge with the upcoming As.
I hope I can survive it. (:
I have faith that i will!
For J2s who are taking their As really really soon,
all the best!
If you are reading this now,
I urge you to get off the computer and start studying!
(But don't study until you keel over and die okay? Health comes first.)

2010-10-29T10:37:00.000-07:00

okayokay i think i need to stop scaring myself.
something's fishy with sm,
but nothing's gonna happen right?
i mean, nothing's going to happen to SHINee right?
no break up.
no jjong pulling out to be a solo artist.
no jjong leaving SHINee.
NO SHINEE BREAK UP.
someone please assure me of that!

Omg i think i need to stop thinking so much,
and stop reading so many articles about them.
cause really, the more i think, the more fishy this whole jongkyung fiasco gets.
hell even the pictures looked posed.
omg this better not be some stunt pulled by sm.
i'll never forgive them if it's true.

"Honestly, in this whole situation I don't think jjong really even gives a fuck: he's hanging out with his ideal girl, has had 2 years of a successful idoldom, he'd rather not do mainstream pop music, and his contract w/ sm is for only 5 years. Additionally, for the butthurt ppl bawwing about his immaturity and how he's so selfish/horny/idgaf--hello? he's not a tard--he may be cocky and childish sometimes but he's not stupid and definitely not without foresight. homeboy wouldn't be this far rn if he were any of those. again, the only decisions idols make for themselves are trivial crap.

As for the recent slew of sad!key fancams--he knows shinee's not going to last long after this stunt, too bad his contract w/ sm's for 10ish years. If shinee does phase out, onew is popular with the comedian mc's and musicals, minho's hot and becoming a fixture in random variety shows, not sure about taemin (maybe he can get acting gig? but he's young and not nearly as 'unique' image-wise as key, so he can always get 'repackaged')--so what about key? what's he gonna do after shinee? ppl can go: o well look at heechul, he's blunt and sassy like key and he's still doing shit. well, key's definitely not as extroverted as heechul, and i think sm will tolerate only one kim heechul-type."

posted by euypheme on http://jinki-condition.livejournal.com/2974.html

omg my heart.
i can't take this anymore.
someone please stop me from reading and thinking so much!

2010-10-27T09:56:00.000-07:00

Woke up today to the news of Jonghyun and Shin Se Kyung dating.
Admittedly, I was kinda sad cause he was my biggest bias in SHINee,
but hey, nothing's wrong with idols dating okay?
So why are Shawols attacking Shin Se Kyung and Jjong?
Leaving the SHINee fancafe,
flaming Shin Se Kyung till the poor girl have to shut down her minihompy,
closing down Jjong's fansites...
Seriously?
Why are such fangirls so childish and immature?
If you really like a particular idol,
it doesn't matter if he is dating, married, retired or dead right?
If you leave him just because he's dating,
what kind of fan are you?
I was commenting on some fandom about how we should support Jjong and Se Kyung like how we supported Shindong and Nari,
and some fan came and commented that it's okay if Shindong is getting married because he's not goodlooking.
Like, HELLO?
Are you even listening to yourself talk?
How immature did that sentence sound?
What sort of superficial person are you, girl?
Did you really think that even with Jjong not dating you would stand a chance?
Omg, such kids should just grow up.

Saw a tweet on jongkey_alets: My friend said: " Jonghyun didnt promise fans that he will stay single forever" Might as well idolise monks. Forever wont get married.
That seriously made me laugh.
Like omg so true!

And I seriously hope SME won't place Jjong into cold storage,
cause now it appears as if they are grooming Taemin to take over him or something.
That thought seriously scares me.

"i dun care if he's dating or not. but I still want to hear him sing and see him perform!"
- NooHoo
See? We still support him.
So why can't other Shawols do the same?

2010-10-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

I love jjong's hey juliet~ part!
^^
Okay I'm randomly posting videos because I'm really bored at home.

There's training tomorrow!
I dun wanna bao qiang.
>.<
Oh well,
look on the bright side.
It's better than rotting away at home.

2010-10-25T23:37:00.000-07:00

I love this! ^^
Although I can't make out Beige's solo part,
except for the words "love", "crush" and "up".

2010-10-25T21:29:00.000-07:00

I feel cheated!
It's not a the job attachment but rather just a part-time job.
There'll be a internal interview in mj first for the job attachment.
Hmmmm...
If that's the case I'll probably pass
because next year will be a really hectic year for me,
with studies and Safra training (cross my fingers).
And my mum wants me to take the driving theory exam.
So, better not right?

2010-10-25T05:09:00.000-07:00

Job interview tomorrow!
Apparently my job attachment thing got accepted.
Omg wear what?
Eliza says wearing jeans is a cardinal sin.
>.<
I need help!!!

2010-10-23T08:28:00.001-07:00

Back with a new update~

Life is so boring now.
I'm practically rotting at home.
Yeah i know, i know.
Good life, nothing to do...
But it's really damn boring.
And i can't even take afternoon naps cause i can't sleep when its so bright.
Oh God, i think i might have to resort to watching movies alone next week.

PW period now.
i'm really very worried over my class's pw.
I have a feeling that there might be Cs and Ds?
omg, i dont even want to think about it.

i counted today,
and i realised that i'll be in china for almost the whole of the month of December.
1st half of the month due to training.
2nd half of the month due to holiday.
i think i have an affinity with china?
it seems as if im forever having a holiday there.

today's kpop night.
and jjong didnt come due to his injury.
makes me wonder how SHINee can perform without their lead singer.
hmmmm.

2010-10-17T07:21:00.001-07:00

I've decided.
I'll take a leap of faith and go for it.
And I'm paying for the trip by myself.
Just hope that I won't regret it.
But for now,
I'll keep the faith.

2010-10-16T05:05:00.001-07:00

Oh why is it so hard?
Should I go?
I'm so so confused.
I can't weigh properly,
if the trip is worth my time and my money.
Somehow...
There's this feel that I might not to benefit from the trip.
It's true that the there are top-notch coaches there,
that one would improve very quickly.
But what happens when one does not even have talent in the first place?
Will I be just wasting my time and money?
It's worth it for other people because there is a chance that they will improve.
But for me,
it feels that that chance is minimal.
If that's the case,
then why should I waste my time chasing something so futile?
As if this year wasn't enough.
There's expectations and hope,
only to be disappointed.

My mum asked me if I really need and want to be in school team that badly.
Somehow, with all the thinking,
I have to agree that the feeling was much much stronger last year.
Even if I do go for the trip,
will I even have a chance?
I keep thinking,
and somehow my heart tells me that the chance I have is slim.
I keep thinking if it would kill me to not be in school team.
And I do agree that it will hurt somehow,
but somewhere in this year,
I realize that I need to grow up.
It might be disappointing,
but it won't kill.

2010-10-15T07:59:00.000-07:00

A for Maths!
Finally,
something that I'm really satisfied with.
I supposed an A is expected of me after all,
cause I did have one year grounding in it.
But I guess the feeling of actually getting an A feels quite nice.
Cause it's the first time I'm getting an A for a major exam in JC.

Farewell assembly for J2s was today.
I feel kinda sad,
knowing that they're moving on to a new stage of life,
whilst I'm still stuck here.
Watching the farewell videos made me feel:
'I should have been watching this in the hall with them'

But I promised myself,
no regrets.
So right now, all I can do is feel happy for them.
And pray for them for their A levels.
I feel sad knowing that I won't be able to see them next yr,
won't be able to joke with them,
won't be able to laugh with them.
But really, I'd like to thank them for all the joy and laughter than they have given me the past 2 years.
I hope that the friendships forged would be able to last.

2010-10-14T03:14:00.000-07:00

I'm in a good mood today! (:
Passed my Econs!
So now I can safely promote already,
even if I failed my math paper.
(which I hope/don't think I will)
E may not be spectacular,
but it's an improvement from U.
I guess I really have to thank Ms Ng,
considering how I kept bothering her with stupid questions like PES and stuff.

1.6K for shooting trip.
I calculated, and I seriously don't think its worth the money.
I bet out of the supposed 2K we're supposed to pay,
1K goes to Coach Zhang.
Anhui is a bloody province,
and we'll be staying in a hostel,
and eating hostel food.
You tell me,
where in earth need 1.6K?
I seriously need to think about it.

2010-10-13T03:11:00.001-07:00

Got back some of my results today.
I think it's okay i guess,
not fantastic.

GP, C.
Okay I'm disappointed,
especially with my essay.
But then again, C is my usual grade,
so there's nothing to whine about also actually.

Hist, E.
I can't say I'm disappointed.
I have deteriorated from MYEs (from D to E),
but the time spent studying hist for Promos was a whole load lesser.
(okay actually a lot, cos I was cramming everything in 2hrs before the exam)
So being able to pass is quite a feat already.

Lit, E.
Improved a little, by 2 marks or so.
Paper 5 saved my ass lah.
I'm surprised Ms. Rehana gave me 14.5/25 for Tess although it seems as though I kinda went off the qn towards the end of the essay.

Overall, okay.
Nothing fantastic.
I passed 1H2 and my H1s already,
so I'm in the safe zone already.
Tomorrow, Econs.
Truthfully,
I'm not too sure.
Then again I just need 2 S grades to get promoted.
Shouldn't be too hard right?

2010-10-05T07:33:00.000-07:00

IT'S OVER!!
Woohoo~

Felt damn fast.
Hoped I did okay this time.

Had an awesome day shopping with classmates.
Found that white cardigan that I was looking for.
I'm happy :D

So looking forward to stingray with Noohoo, Joyce and Joy!
:D

2010-10-03T06:25:00.000-07:00

Why is it that you never tell me things anymore?
Or was it that you have never really told me anything much in the first place?
I'm kinda upset that you're going through such hard times,
and you never let me know.
It makes me feel as if I'm not a good enough friend for you to share your troubles with.
I missed how we used to be.
I guess what people say is right after all,
time does change everything.
I used to think that maybe things won't really change much between us.
Looking back, kinda stupid huh?
I won't force you to talk or something if you really don't want to.
But if you do,
you know how to find me.
I might not be able to help,
(heck, I think I can't even help at all)
but I'm willing to listen.

Okay, I feel much better getting this out.
It's been weighing on my mind the whole day
and I need an outlet for this.

2010-09-27T07:50:00.000-07:00

17/25 for the recent econs test!
Woohoo~
Ok but its not really a test type of test either,
Cos she gave us the qn and told us to just write within time limit.
And plus she went thru a similar qn before the so-called test.
But not bad liao,
How I wish it was the promos man...

2more days till the real deal starts.
Wish me luck.

2010-09-09T08:23:00.000-07:00

Pressured by Noohoo to blog.

Can't believe that people actually make me update my blog.

First Joy, now Noohoo.

September holidays ending soon!

Totally not looking forward to it.

Promos in less than 20days.

Hope that all goes well.

*crosses fingers*

Noohoo is a weirdo.

She gets high at sad songs.

Who does that lah?

Parents abandoning me on Sat night to watch a concert.

2010-09-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

Kpop night @ $258, 6groups; 2hours.

Pay $258 just to see SHINee perform for 20mins.

It's supposed to be a concert!

But with each group only performing 2-3songs, it's no different from a showcase.

Ugh.

I shall just save money and go for SS3 instead.

Or SM Town 2010,

that is if they come.

News said that they MIGHT come.

2010-08-27T02:51:00.000-07:00

YOG ended yesterday.

And I feel so empty now.

No more match and competitions to look forward to.
):

It feels like this 13days have passed extremely quickly.

I kinda regretted not volunteering for YOG,

because I might not live to see the YOG being hosted in Singapore anymore.

It took 130years for the Olympic Games to be hosted by Greece again.

So chances are, I might not be able to ever see the YOG being hosted in Singapore anymore.

Ah well,

too late for regrets.

At least I have the YOG ez-link card to remember the YOG by.

2010-08-22T04:39:00.000-07:00

It's been sometime since I've updated my blog.

Since I'm kinda free

(actually not really as I still have a bit of econs hw left)

I've decided to update my blog.

Spent the day mugging with Joyce and Noohoo yesterday.

It's nice sitting at Coffee Bean and just mugging away.

Quite productive too.

Then caught Salt with my family.

And I think it's not bad.

Step Up 3 anyone?

Promos coming soon.

I should really start using my time more productively.

I don't want to have any regrets this year.

안돼요 안돼요 그렇게 가지마요

제발 한 번만 한 번만 날 다시 안아줘요

You can’t, you can’t, don’t leave like this
Please just one more time, one more time, hold me in your arms again

2010-08-10T06:41:00.000-07:00

I passed my econs test for the first time! (:

WTH.
I'm so happy that I passed a mere lecture test.
Shows how bad I am at econs huh?
BUT!
Considering I didn't really have the time to study much,
can pass not bad right?
(I'm just lucky that what I studied came out for the test >.<)

Mum wants 3As for Promos.
That's even harder than shrinking the moon, or entering someone's dreams.
Ugh.
My aim is just to pass every subject.
Which, to me is already a huge feat.

2010-08-02T07:52:00.000-07:00

Omg.
I'm speechless.
It sounds like an actual song instead of being a mashup.
Ugh so cool.

2010-07-31T02:02:00.000-07:00

I'm bored.
-.-
Ok fine I have loads of work to complete.
And I only managed to finish my hit matrix.
But still!
Boring work is boring.
):

Got back my result slip yesterday.
My lit tutor announced my friend's and my name during lecture.
Freaked the hell out of me cause I thought I did something wrong.
The result slip merely shows the grade, no percentile ):
I wanna see the percentile to at least know where I stand for each subject.
Blahs.

Ok I think i should get back to work.

2010-07-26T05:00:00.000-07:00

Can't decide who looks cuter.

Donghae or Baengshin?

Ahahas, happy week!

Cos it's confirmed that I do not need to attend the MTPS :D

I feel accomplished! :D

I need to keep this up.

2010-07-22T05:45:00.000-07:00

A Japanese symphonic band from Meiden High School came to MJC to perform today!

AND I SAW A GUY WHO LOOKED LIKE HYUKJAE.

ASDFGHGFDSA

Joyce saw him too.

That lucky woman was sitting right in front of him!

Ugh.

Searching for some interesting article on crime and punishment.

Are thousand year sentences considered interesting?

2010-07-18T00:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was an awesome day!

Can't believe Joyce, NH and I stood at Pet Station 101 for like 45mins,

squealing over rabbits.

-.-

Caught Despicable Me with them.

It was hilarious and I laughed throughout the entire movie.

Inception, on the other hand,

was like some roller-coaster ride.

But it was freaking cool.

If only dream world like those exist in the real world...

Sunday's here and Monday's coming.

At least I have a reason for looking forward to tomorrow :D

2010-07-16T02:31:00.000-07:00

I got an E for H2 lit.

And idk what to feel.

I'm kinda happy,

cos E means that I didn't fail the paper.

But at the same time,

I guess I feel disappointed cos I did expect more subconsciously.

This feeling of having mixed feelings and emotions totally suck.

2010-07-13T20:41:00.000-07:00

Tired TTM.
But FunFestique was pretty fun yesterday.
But it was frustrating that the balloons keep dropping down.
And how the weapons broke down halfway.
But overall?
Pretty fun.

Miss Huda isn't here today.
So free period for GP.
And I still slept late last night to do my AQ.
Gahs.

MYEs are over,
and I've gotten back almost everything except Lit.
Seems pretty ok,
Math - B
GP - C
Hist - D
Econs - U
My Econs...

I'll take comfort in how the highest grade in my class is an S.

(not very good, I know. :S)
Nvm, I'll studying harder. :D

FFGCC later on.
Hopes everything goes well and there are no technical glitches.

Pretty bored now,

'cause I finished my GP CAQ,

and I didn't bring any hw to do.

And there's no one online that I can disturb.

Oh,

And Joy!

I updated! :D

This proves that I do not update once a month okay!

2010-07-07T06:34:00.000-07:00

Omg, so cute!

And I was smiling throughout the MV.

I feel so silly now.

2010-07-01T02:08:00.000-07:00

IT'S OVER.

FREEDOM!

(ok, freedom for 5days)

Oh anw,

Happy birthday Teukie! :D

Oh baby say goodbye~ Oh 잠시만 goodbye~

2010-06-29T23:28:00.000-07:00

I'm totally in love with this song.

Eunhyuk and Donghae did a wonderful job with this.

Listening to this,

made me realise that I'm going to miss Kangin.

But it's ok! (:

It's only 2 years right?

Come out as a better person.

One more paper till end of MYEs.

A 3hr Lit paper.

But hey,

if I could survive having to write 4 hist essays in 3hrs,

3 lit essays in 3hrs is nothing right?

Alright,

enough digression.

Back to Wuthering Heights and Tess.

2010-06-25T05:31:00.000-07:00

♥ 너 같은 사람 또 없어 (No Other)

Hmm, but i was expecting something more danceable,

like It's You.

2more days to MYEs!

Nervous?

Stressed?

I know I am!

Ugh.

But even if Singapore's Orchard Road can get flooded,

I can ace my MYEs!

Right?

2010-05-21T08:41:00.001-07:00

Ho-Ho-Holiday!!!

Yes people!

Thanks to the awesome MJ soccer boys,

the entire school had a holiday today!

Utter awesomeness.

Had a great rest today.

I miss days where I can just flop in bed and watch the world fly past me.

But its only for today!

Mugging session with Pistol shooters tmr @ Changi Airport.

Then tuition @ 7pm.

Yep, it's a busy day tomorrow.

Next week will the the last week of Term2.

Which means that the June Holidays are coming.

Which then implies that Midyrs are not far behind.

Ugh.

I need to mug really hard this holiday.

SuJu's 4th album came out last week! :D

Didn't really like Bonamana initially cos it was really auto-tuned.

But I guess its kinda addictive cos it's stuck in my head now.

Hahas.

2010-04-26T18:10:00.001-07:00

Four free periods today!

Oh man,

I should have just skipped school.

Waste of my time.

>.<

There's this never ending pile of homework just waiting to be done.

So much to do,

so little time.

I'm actually pretty worried for my class.

I hope that they will buck up soon.

Maybe MYEs will be a wake-up call?

I hope so.

I'll pray for them.

Long weekends coming up!

But that just means more homework.

I need a break!

And badly.

But I'm totally not looking forward to the June Holidays,

as it means that MYEs are coming up.

My grades seem to be better this year.

I should have just chose this subject combination right from the very start.

But its okay.

No regrets :D

Looking forward to 8May!

VJC dance concert with Nicole and Yanling.

I hope they're doing okay in school.

2010-03-12T06:51:00.000-08:00

The March Hols are here!
But...
There's econs lecture on monday. -.-

I am so NOT going to sit beside her.
Just in case her mind just shortcircuits again.

Training + tuition + CIP tomorrow!
Its going to be a busy busy day!

Ah yes, and I need to email the rest of the ignite! comm members the details of our discussion by tomorrow.

Actually, march hols isn't really a holiday.
There's tests to study for, a HUGE pile of homework and never-ending trainings.
Ah wells.
At least I don't have March Block Tests to worry about.
^^

Oh!
Congratulations to Zulaiha and Weilin for getting into SC!
They derserved it for all the hard work they've put in.
:D

2010-03-10T21:41:00.000-08:00

I feel so bad,
and embaressed for her.
Does she not know that she's totally not fitting in by doing that?
And there she was saying that she wants to have a normal college life.
So much for normal college life.

I really wanted to tell her that whatever she's doing,
is not getting her expected outcome.
And that's she's becoming the talk of the school for the wrong reasons.
But somehow,
I don't have the heart to do so.
And I'm also afraid of her reaction.
:S

On a happier note,
today is the last day of school!
For my J2 friends,
good luck for the upcoming March Blocks! :D

2010-03-02T01:21:00.000-08:00

If you think that I'm not going to improve fast enough;
or not good enough,
why not just tell me straight in the face?
Rather than beating around the bush and making me go through all this bullshit.

I'm just so sick of this.
And I'm upset that my 1st post in 2010 has to be about this.
Don't come and ask me what happened.
(If there's anyone who even reads my blog anymore)

Of course, its understandable that in this world,
there's no room for sentimentality.
Nobody looks at the amount of hard work you put in,
just the final result.
But somehow I still feel so hurt.
I'm afraid to ask around,
cause somehow there's this feeling that it's only me.

Come to think of it.
It feels like a practical joke on me.
Appear to help me,
then leave to to die on my own.
Maybe it was my fault.
I should've seriously considered it first when she gave that suggestion.
Now, it only feels like she made use of me to fill in that empty space.

2009-10-16T08:14:00.000-07:00

I'm utterly disappointed in myself.
Looking at my grades,
I don't think I'll be able to make it.
Sat down, talked to my mum.
and thought about it long and hard.
Nothing's finalised,
but if it takes me 3years to complete a journey where a normal person takes 2,
I guess I'll just have to accept it.

I'll stay strong.

I'm not worried about myself.
I'm actually worried for others who did worse than me.
I want to help them,
but I don't know how.
Really stupid of me,
I can't even save myself and I want to help others?

For now,
I'm going to totally focus on PW,
and not fret about the possibility of not being able to advance.

People who are worried about me,
(if there are people who are worried about me)
I'm sorry to make you worry.
Don't, ok?
I'm strong,
remember?
I'll always be the cheerful Jolene that all of you know.

All will be revealed on the 5th of November.
Till then.

2009-10-05T04:36:00.000-07:00

Soulmate's duet. :D
Composed by both Jaejoong and Yoochun.
Used as the theme song for Hello Kitty's 35th anniversary.
It's such a pretty song.
Yoochun's rap was so hard to understand!
I only caught "keep the faith" and something about christmas tree lights.
I wished he had more parts to sing though.
Even when they sing together,
Jae's the main melody and he's the harmony.
(No pun intended. :P)

Promo's ended today.
What a relief.
Hopefully I did okay.
It seems to pass a little too fast.
Something doesn't feel quite right.

Oh this made my day!
Earlier today, TVXQ / DBSK / Tohoshinki got together on stage to hold a concert at the Hongkou Soccer Stadium in Shanghai, China. Despite the turmoil, rumors of breakup, and lawsuit with SM Entertainment, the boys got together and put on a great show for the more than 30,000 fans in attendance.

According to fan accounts, TVXQ's leader Yunho said: "The five of us will never part!" Even though the concert was held in China, this lead the crowd to chant "믿어요! 동방신기 사랑해" which translates to "Believe! We Love Dong Bang Shin Ki." Jaejoong, and Micky were both seen crying around this time as well. There's also reports that all 5 cried together at the end.

This reassured a lot of Cassiopeia who have always kept the faith and continue to do so. Here's some photos and also check out some of the fancams below. Also make sure to check out the OneTVXQ Forums.
http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/tvxq_yunho_says_the_5_of_us_will_never_part_at_shanghai_concert/

It may seem nothing much,
but to me at least it's a form of reassurance in face of the DBSK-SM lawsuit.

FINE, I KNOW I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING BUT I COULDN'T RESIST!

2009-09-30T06:19:00.000-07:00

For the dear SiHan-obsessed Nicole.
(I bet she watched this before, downloaded it even.)
Don't try to deny being obsessed Nicole!
You know you are.
The SiHan titanic scene was hilarious.
Especially Hankyung pointing at Donghae and going, "Ooh, a fish!"
Siwon's expression was priceless too.

Ok, I should go back to studying now.

2009-09-01T04:20:00.000-07:00

An MV that I watched with the girls yesterday :D
It's filmed in 2007 to promote a new line of Samsung (or Anycall, in korea) music phones.

Junsu(the one doing the graffiti) looks awesome in here.
I has no idea he could play the guitar!

BoA's vocals are amazing! :D

Tablo's rap rocked as well. ("music - she saved my life. I'm lovin' her through day and night.")

2009-08-31T08:16:00.000-07:00

Appearances are not everything.
I got so frustrated with my previous skin that I've decided to use Blogger's template.
It not the appearance that matters,
it's the content. :D
(Yet I think my content isn't that great either :S)

Had a great day today in school.
The class party was fun.

Met up with Nicole and Yanling after school.
It's been a long time since I last saw them.
Ate at Swensens, then went to surprise Amanda at eHub.
Thereafter, we sat at Macs and fangirled over SuJu, DBSK and BoA.
Nicole is a major SuJu freak!
She can recognise all 13 of their voices!

There's no school tomorrow.
Nothing to be happy about,
cause there's promos to prepare for.
It's coming so fast,
it just feels like yesterday when I first stepped into MJ.
>.<
I hope I can make it for promos.

Hoping is no use.
心动不如行动.
Study hard people!
We can do it! :D

2009-08-07T19:58:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I haven't blogged for a long time.
Blame it on the hectic shedule that I face everyday.
Wonder how people like Nicole and Ngik Hiong managed to update their blog regularly.
Lucky people~

Had a crazy conversation with Ngik Hiong last night.
It's been so long since I laughed so heartily
at something as trivial as noticing how many times someone changed their clothes.
It made me think back to the NP gathering we had a few week ago.
I realised how much I missed everyone.
AHS and AHNP.

Shooting's pretty okay.
I look forward to shooting sometimes.
But I can't help making comparisons to AHNP.
Somehow, the feeling in MJShooting is different from AHNP.
I was hoping fervently that I could perhaps re-capture the feelings in AHNP through shooting.
But,
turns out that it was simply wishful thinking on my part.
I can't truely let go of myself like how I used to be able to.

Even hanging around friends can get really tiring.
I have to be mindful of what I say and do
as some people are a little sensitive.
I can't do this; can't say this; cant...
It feels like I'm losing sight of myself.

Somehow, chatting with Ngik Hiong last night made me realise that
she seems to be my only form of connection to our past.
I must say that it made me treasure her more.

Chalet tonight.
Hopefully it won't feel awkward.
It's awkward enough, not knowing how to react to someone.
I feel so bad actually, ignoring that person
just because I don't know how to react to him.

2009-06-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

Hello people!

Its the june holidays.

And i hate it.

Spent the entire of the 1st week in sch attending lectures.

Have to rush out GPP by the end of the hols.

Have to finish studying the end of the hols

Mid-yrs at the beginning of the new term.

This is madness!

Watched Electra with Sherlyn and Carol yesterday at theVictoria Theatre.

There were 3 tickets as soem H2 lit students didnt want to go.

So we kinda jumped at the chance.

It only cost $4 per ticket!!

Anyway, i think its pretty okay.

Got abit confusing but later it sort of gets understood.

People who wanna know what Electra is about,

go wiki it.

And no, it is not about the movie!

That one is Elektra.

Note the difference! :D

Its a little creepy actually.

The nurses look alike and the actors really look insane.

The chorus seems a little nutty as well.

The entire play was in Japanese and Korean.

And we were sitting way front.

And the subtitles were on top.

So...

My poor neck.

Subtitles was crappy as well.

They only translated the main gist but not the entire ranting.

So when they rant for like 5mins or so, you only get one pathetic line.

Crappy subtitles aside,

the main idea of how the director used the mental institution and wheelchairs to signify the mental instability of the characters were rather interesting.

but the death of Orestes was not clearly explained.

So when he appeared after everyone said he was dead,

i interpreted the scene where Orestes killed his mother as part of Electra's imagination.

Lost?

Like i said, go wiki it.

Its really quite interesting.

Watched Terminator Salvation in Malaysia today.

Not bad..

But Christian Bale looked hotter in Batman.

hehs.

There's school tomorrow!!

Oh joy.

2009-05-28T01:59:00.000-07:00

no school today.

spent my morning at yuen mun's place filiming the video for PBL.

june hols are near.

just a mere one more day away.

which means that the mid-yrs are here.

its kind of worrying.

jiahui told me that in her previous class,

only 5 managed to officially promote.

6 got retained and the rest were advanced.

remember the stats that the principal showed us?

the ones about the advanced students.

ugh. just thinking about it just makes me wanna throw up.

i have this uneasy feeling at the pit of my stomachache.

this feeling that i might stand a huge chance of getting retained.

why oh why did i not take the arts stream?!

i would have done better in the arts.

that's what everyone told me.

but no...

i just HAD to be stubborn to insist on science stream.

i swear, if i get retained,

IF.

i switching to the arts.

GP exam on monday!

stress stress...

the end-of-termII-bash is on monday too.

ugh.

what if i got lost on my way to 8QSAM?

i'll lian lei the rest of the class.

sometimes, its not that great to be a leader.

haiz.

oh and yes.

People from 09S304!!!

those who have yet to pay me $6.50 for the end-of-termII-bash,

you better pay me by tomorrow morning before assembly!!

OR ELSE!

2009-05-21T06:39:00.000-07:00

Its nearing the end of term 2.

And man is it a crazy term.

I just had 3 tests on Monday.

Could you imagine?

PW is a nightmare.

GPP is like, the bane of my life.

Shooting is okay.

Not too bad :D

Homework is never-ending.

It feels like I'm going to be crushed under homework soon.

Ending school everyday at 5.05pm is sheer madness.

I really envy Ngik Hiong.

At least she ends school at 2.35pm every Monday and Tuesday!

I'll like, die of happiness if i get to end school so early.

I look forward to the weekends every week.

That's like, my only motivation for surviving everyday in school.

I think, if this goes on,

I might just collaspe from all the work.

June Hols!!

Please come faster!

(Oh wait. June Hols mean more work, more PW.

Not to mention it means that mid-yrs are coming)

Life sucks man.

2009-02-15T04:44:00.001-08:00

JC life is SO not fun.

I wonder who exactly was that idiot who told me its fun.

Life in a JC merely consists of lectures, homework, tutorials, more homework, cca and MORE homework.

Where's the fun?

Okay, so i was exaggerating a little.

i have yet to start tutorials and cca.

BUT!

1 look at the ACTUAL(not temporary) timetable scared me half to death.

the past week with the TEMPORARY timetable was hectic enough.

That's why I am blogging bout JC life NOW, despite the fact that school started 2weeks ago.

Orientation was quite fun.

I particularly enjoyed the Mass Meridian Monopoly.

MMM for short, AKA Amazing Race.

Made quite a few friends.

I get along well with most of my classmates.

CCA-wise, i selected shooting as my 1st choice.

Hopefully can get in man.

If not, it'll either be guitar or SLC.

Alright, enough of school.

I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button with my mum today.

its really really good.

Totally worth the $9.50 i spent.

Its a slow moving type of film, really similar to 海角七号.

Some people may find it boring.

but i think its a type of film that's meant to be savoured.

If the shallow films like The Wedding Game is like cheap booze,

then Benjamin Button is like fine wine,

meant to be sipped and savoured slowly.

No offense to people who like The Wedding Game.

The end was really tragic, but apt.

It brought tears to my eyes.

Of course, there are still some bits of humor in the story.

i really like the guy who got struck by lightning 7 times.

Every time he saw Benjamin he would go, "Do you know i was struck by lightning 7 times? i was..."

Darn funny, eveytime he would have a different story of how he got struck.

repairing his roof, driving a tractor in a field, walking his dog, so on so forth.

Its a great film.

Seriously, go watch it.

If you do, don't expect it to be your typical intro-climax-resolution type of story.

Just be patient, and watch it through. :D

2009-01-20T00:45:00.000-08:00

i realised that i haven't updated for quite some time.
so here's what happened the past few days.

firstly, o levels results.
11points. after deduction, 7.
i think i did ok bah.
not great, but not too bad.
right in the middle.
:D
i expected better,
but oh wells.
you can't turn back time can you?
so, no regrets.

recently caught Transporter3 and Red Cliff 2.
Transporter was ok.
the girl was a little irritating at time though.
Red Cliff 2 was not too bad.
part 1 was definately a whole lot nicer.
but at least Lin Chiling had a bigger part to play in Red Cliff 2.
But I was a little disappointed in Zhao Wei's character though.
unlike the 1st movie, she didn't have many fight scenes and there was little character developement.
Cao Cao was totally redundant at the war scene!
All he did was just stand there and look furious.

went shopping with Michelle yesterday!
Reached home around 9plus.
my feet was aching like crazy.
But overall it was a fun day.
we should have more outings like this man.

there's cell tomorrow!
ugh, i feel so bad missing last week's cell.

CNY's next week!
have a happy moo moo new year everyone!!
^^

2008-12-30T01:21:00.000-08:00

GOOD NEWS!
erm..
okay, maybe for me.
Yougisha X no kenshin will be showing in Singapore on the 26 Feb 2009!!!
http://sg.movies.yahoo.com/Suspect+X/movie/15065/
YAY!

you guys are lost right?
Yougisha X no kenshin is the Galileo movie sequel.
Galileo is a jap mystery series that was adapted from a book series, Tantei Galileo.
i recommend you guys to watch it man, the series i mean.
its super nice. :D
you guys can watch it on crunchyroll. ^^
trust me, you won't regret it.
those who only go for romance, forget it.
the closest thing you get to romance is the hug scene at the last ep.

btw, Yougisha X no kenshin roughly translates into the devotion of suspect X.
NOT just suspect X.
sheesh.
more info here: http://asianmediawiki.com/The_Devotion_of_Suspect_X

i guess you guys are sick of me gushing on and on bout the movie right?

okay, so i had a pretty rough week.
relatives from hong kong came...
my family spent a huge bomb just on their bloody meals.
they didn't pay a single cent for their meals!
thank goodness they went to Penang.
but they're coming back tomorrow.
UGH.
MUST BEAR WITH THEM!

Christmas was pretty ok.
watched bedtime stories.
super funny.
i love Bugsy the gineau pig man.
real cute.
gonna watch ip man today.
heard it was good.
btw, it's pronounced as ip MUN, not MAN.
and Amanda, its definately not pronouced as I-P MAN.

i'm off to watch tv!
tata ppl~

2008-12-08T22:07:00.000-08:00

heyhey!

i'm back from my hong kong trip!

okay lah.

the main reason i went there was to attend my relative's wedding.

it was boring if u ask me.

i just kept eating.

apart from the wedding,

i've been to other places.

like HK Disneyland and Ocean Park.

Japan's Disneyland was more fun.

HK's was small.

but at least i understood what they were talking about.

knowing cantonese makes communicating easier.

the parade at Disneyland was awesome.

the lighting was fantastic.

We didn't stay for the firework due to two reasons.

1. my cousin injured his neck and thus we had to leave early.

2. there will definately be a HUGE surge of ppl leaving after the fireworks and we did'nt want to be caught in the human jam.

stuff in HK are damn expensive!

be it food or clothing.

but i managed to buy something there lah.

Guys, your souvenirs are coming in the form of christmas presents.

i went there with my uncle, aunt and cousins.

i swear my cousin is most boring person on earth.

all that ever comes out of his mouth are statistics, numbers and info.

"how long...", "how tall...", "how far..."

seriously.

like when we visited the macau tower.

the floor of the macau tower was glass and all of us were talking about how cool and so on so forth.

then he came along and started talking about how thick the glass is supposed to be and how long will it need to be changed.

thank goodness he's not like that when we eat.

the last thing i need to know about is the history of wanton noodles.

he makes me wonder if all hwachong students are so boring.

we stayed in macau for 2 nights.

there's nothing much at macau.

just casinos.

but the buidings there are interesting.

my relatives are coming over to singapore to hold a wedding dinner here.

makes me wonder why do we need to go over to HK since they're coming over.

anyway, haiyan-jiejie(i have no idea how to address her, so i'll just stick to jiejie) is staying over at my place.

we came back on saturday and left for KL on sunday.

i must say that i bought more stuff in KL than in HK.

its the malaysia great sale!

caught 2 movies in KL.

Bolt and Twilight.

Bolt was super funny.

Rhino the hamster was adorable.

i laughed fron beginning till the end.

there was even a James Bond-like car chase in the beginning!

Twilight, on the other hand, was a little disapponting.

it failed to deliver as well as the book.

the beginning was a little boring and certain scenes look super sappy.

but the baseball scene was AWESOME.

that was my fav scene.

the acting was mediocre

robert pattinson was rather stiff and certain angles made him look weird.

jasper looks...... so un-jasper-like.

totally not like what i expected him to be.

the rest were okay i guess.

the actress playing alice was gorgeous.

she sounds like what alice might sound like too.

i'll end it here okay?

will post pictures up when i feel like it.

posting pics can be a pain sometimes.

2008-11-25T02:42:00.000-08:00

heyhey!

just came back from Ikea.

Amanda looks like Cleopatra with her new hairdo,

especially the fringe part.

Yanling and Nicole looks the same.

We fooled around abit at the stuffed toys area.

Didn't spend on anything.

Except food.

Ikea hotdog rocks man!

Prom's tomorrow.

Anyone getting panicky?

Dun think so right?

Friday's the GuitarHarmonicaDance concert.

Wow, what a mouthful.

And, no that is SO not the concert name.

Oh man, i better enjoy myself at prom tomorrow.

Or else i'll be throwing my $78 into the sea.

AFTER OS!

2008-11-19T23:52:00.000-08:00

I'M FREE!
Its a week after Os,
and as you guys can see,
i'm changed my blogskin.
i thought its really cute.
:D

next week will be a busy week man.
Follow-up on Monday,
prom on Wednesday,
concert on Friday.
Not to mention the fact that I'm leacing for Hong Kong on Sunday.
busy, ne?

I'm supposed to mee t with Amanda and Nicole for a movie tomorrow.
but as usual, Amanda MIA-ed.
Anyone who made contact with her for the next 8hrs,
could you tell her that I'm looking for her?
And please tell her to turn on her forsaken mobile phone?
She owns a mobile phone for a reason you know?
And its most definately not for decoration purposes.

Class chalet just ended.
I thought it was ok bah.
The board games part was damn fun.
Amanda can't play the hand sign game to save her life.

Year 2008 is going to end soon.
Any regrets?
I know i don't.

AMANDA SOH!
CALL ME THIS RET HOT INSTANT IF YOU SEE THIS POST!

hey peeps!

2008-09-13T21:43:00.000-07:00

here am i posting,

out of obligation cos i did mention that i'll post after perlims.

i think the prelims were quite ok, i guess.

bio and chem were easier than the midyrs.

amath? forget it man.

i'll thank God even if i get a D7.

i have a feeling that i'll get a, i dunno, U?

U for Ungraded.

sheesh.

Amanda MIA-ed.

what the hell happened to her?

its like she disappeared from the face of the Earth.

so now i have no idea if we're still going bowling tomorrow.

could any who made contact with her for the last 24hrs let her know that i'm waiting for her reply so that i can plan my day?

if i dun hear from her by 2300, i'll just have to assume that it's called off.

seriously, is it that hard to be a little more responsible?

i hate it when things are last min!

hmm.. its genetics?

cos my family seriously detest last min activities.

today's the mooncake festival.

no such gan jue for me.

my mom's going for a collegue's wedding dinner.

my dad is now probably on a boat puking his guts out.

he has seasickness, so why is he willing to go on a boat?

in the middle of some rocky ocean?

oh well, for him is...

fishing > life.

hope he brings some normal looking fish home.

the last time he went fishing, he brought home this weird fish.

and its skin is so tough, its like i'm chewing on leather.

and i STEAMED it.

if it was deep-fried, perhaps my knife would not be able to even cut through it.

oh gosh.

w/o exams, time seems to pass VERY slowly.

its 1252 only!

i'm bored to tears.

i'm heading to Hong Kong at year-end.

my relative is getting married there.

my grandfather's sister's son. so he's my... grand-uncle?

confusing right?

its been like 10yrs since i went HK.

i assume that everything and everyone would have changed.

but i still remember that tree with the owl (it was supposed to be a litter bin) at the ocean park.

the owl will say, "thanks you for your litter" whenever anyone throws rubbish in.

it may not be there now.

aw man. :(

gotta go ppl! :D

tata~

Everything ended with a POP.

2008-04-20T06:29:00.000-07:00

This is specially dedicated to my fellow NPCC mates (of course, not forgetting sir and ma'am)

Time really flies.
POP was yesterday,
and everything concluded with POP.
i told Sir that i won't cry, that I was an iceberg.
but, i cried.
ah shucks.

anw,
i'd like to say a huge thank you to everyone that had played a part in my NP life.

hey Rachel,
although i'm not very close with you,
i think you're like,
a really cute person and a great project I/C.
thank you for helping us organise our CIP and so forth.
Oh remember during that time,
during HRC, i was like stuck up there.
then when i was rescued you came over and gave me a hug.
that, really touched me.
Really,
a huge thank you!

Yo Val!
You're a great friend and a wonderful sec3 squad I/C.
Kudos to you for being able to manage your CCA life and studies so well.
You're a great fellow D.N Angel (and other anime) fan.
Remember the times we shared on msn,
arguing over who was better, Daisuke or Dark?
ahaha.
That was a really great time.
Your commanding was like, woah.
FORMMIDABLE lah.
Keep it up and good luck for your 'O's!
(though i think i need it more than you >.<)

WanLing!

FELLOW RAIN FAN~

ahaha,

the korean superstar Rain and not the literal rain.

You're great as a treasurer!

You can really manage money well man. :D

let's work to losing weight?

Remember the bet?

who manage to lose weight first will get the other to treat her ice-cream!

both of us ended up not losing weight at all.

hahax.

You're really cute and sweet.

Thanks for all the help you've rendered me over theses 3years and 4months.

thank you for helping me think of what to do for 2007 annual unit dinner

(not sure if you remembered).

thank you for everything.

ROCK ON CHOCOLOVE(you remember?)!!!!

oh yea, i wanna go wakeboarding with you!

JIAMIN~

You lame shit. -.-

You wait, one fine day i'll smack your butt till its purple.

jiayous okay?

i'm like, really glad that you're the secretary instead of me,

cos i think Sir and Ma'am will never be able to make out what i'm writing.

must jiayou for Bio hor.

you're a real fun person to be with and you never fail to brighten my day.

really, so must continue to shine like the sun, alright?

RAY SEEN.

you're so highly-strung,

and i'm like, so un-highly-strung?

so we kinda like as different as night-and-day,

yin-and-yang,

rain-and-sun, ....

(this list can go on forever)

anw, lighten up abit!

and you're a nice(YES, nice) person,

always asking if i need help and so on.

if you need any help,

i'm always a phone call away!

or a msn-message away.

i'll always be here to lend you a listening ear,

that is if you ever need one.

i wanna say, great job on improving your grade,

must continue to jiayou!

hi Ashley,

truth to be told, i'm kinda disliked of u when i was in sec1

cos i found you really, bossy?

but now i found you to be really not as bad as i tot you were.

yeps.

anw, although i'm not very close with you,

i'm gald i got to know you.

hey hey michelle!

i rememeber you in sec1 as the-girl-whose-taller-than-me-and-lives-above-me.

now you're the-girl-whose-SHORTER-than-me-and-still-lives-above-me.

we shared many memories together

and i hope we'll still be as close in the near future as we are now.

you've done alot for the unit and i thank you from the bottom of my heart.

QUIT APOLOGISING!

seriously!

you've done more than enough,

so stop apologising.

LISA~~~~

though not very close,

you are a truely loyal friend.

remember during the chalet,

i burnt the chair and was real upset about it,

thanks for comforting me and telling me that you'll help.

i was really touched by what you did.

then when my DVD player couldn't play the DVDs,

you tried to help us ask around if anyone could lend us DVDs to watch.

ni de hao yi, wo xin ling le. XIE XIE NI!!!!!!

JIANQIONG~

you're a really sweet person.

thanks for offering to help me search for the Chu Lu song so that i can sing that during the fashion show.

its great to have known you and being able to sing along with you. :D

i'm sorry for taking you for granted at times.

the noticeboard looked great thanks to you!

JIAYOU!

megan!

you must learn to speak up.

quit chanting.

ahaha.

just joking.

Do you know you are my role model?

i wanna be as tall as you!

so i will keep on jumping till i'm as thin and as tall as you.

no more dieting for you.

you're skinny as it is.

anw, it has been great standing beside you for the past 3years and 4months.

jiayou ok?

lets try to get out of Amath remedial together!

YANYAN~

you are truely a great friend and a wonderful fellow Toda Erika fan.

And Death Note fan.

Let's smell the Death Note together!

you're like, superb at dancing?

and you tell me you can't dance!

i think it was fate that landed us in the same class.

you too never fail to make me laugh.

you're forever happy man.

That's a gift and you should treasure it.

oh yeah, you're a great liar too.

not that it's good or anything, but yeah.

If you were to take part in Liar game you'll ace the game for sure.

be sure to split that $100million with me then!

:D:D Everytime i cough, you'll ask me i'm okay.

although it became a inside joke among us,

it never fail to give me that warm fuzzy feeling whenever you ask me if i'm okay.

yes, you are a true friend.

i hope you'll be able to get into VJC.

and get into Theatre Studies.

Who knows?

i might see you there! :D

LAME LIJING!

Quit being zi lian can!

oh and unlike yanling,

you cant lie to save you life.

not only that, you're really gullible.

if you were to take part in Liar Game you'll die in a matter of seconds.

But that's not the point.

you know,

whenever i fall down,

everyone will laugh at me.

but you'll ask me if i'm okay.

that was really nice of you to do so.

really, it made me feel much better

cos it was kinda embarrassing to be laughed at by so many ppl.

thank you for being there to ask me if i'm alright.

i think it was Fate that placed us in the same class right from sec1.

thank you for being there in my life.

WENXIN!

my "daughter".

ahahas.

i finally realised that we have one common topic/enemy.

ANTS!

lets like, exterminate the ants in AHS man!

i regret not knowing you earlier cos you're really a nice person.

cute and sweet and yeah, nice.

its been great working with you for the past few weeks when i'm taking your squad with you for training.

oh your so thin already,

quit trying to lose weight!

yep, we live very near each other.

we'll see each other around.

I'm sure about it!!!

so see ya around!

hey Lavinia.

i had no idea you were an anime/manga fan!

i think we know that we both are anime/manga fanatics,

i'm sure we would have been wonderful friends.

Nonetheless,

being in the same group as you in ATC,

i realised that you are a very nice person although you may appear to be very cold and cool on the outside.

anw, rock on girl!

jiayou for your chinese!

LEONAAAAAAAAA~~~~

your hair looks cute.

anw, i really admire you being able to like, manage your time so well.

i must learn that from you man.

same with wenxin,

we live very near each other,

so sure will meet one.

if we don't then...

i'll run to your house to find you!

thanks for being a great friend.

no need for any thanks cos my mum fetched you home,

its on shun lu what.

jiayouz for you "O"s.

(although i think i need it more than you. >.<)

Sheena~

heys, i like your specs manz. you're really nice. and i love mashed potato too! i think we should have a mashed potato party or something! remember LMSC? then the 2nd day, i had to go alone again cos u have Hillary? you sms-ed me, "awww, dun be sad. I'll rush there as soon as i can, okay?" that, really cheered me up. nothing beats having a friend and squadmate knowing that you're lonely and is willing to rush over to be with you. thank you for that sms. it pulled me through the whole morning of LMSC without you. i was anticipating you arrival and when you do, you greeted me with that mega-watt smile of yours. thanks alot for that.

oh and during HRC, when i was stuck up there and was unable to get down,

you stood in my line of sight and kept saying,

"Jolene, don't be scared!"

that was really sweet of you to have done that.

thanks alot!

NOOHOO!

yes it you, dear "sister"!

i must say that it was simply too amusing to be mistakened as your sister by Mrs Chew.

yeps,

you're a great squadmate and a wonderful friend.

Although you always make me exasperated by trying to explain english words to you,

i made me happy knowing that i have made a difference in your english.

so!

if you ever need help in english or history, feel free to come to me!

i'm a phone call/sms/msn-message away!

NOT FORGETTING~

EH SIR!

oh yeah, its "sir" and not "eh, sir".

anw,

thank you for playing a huge part in my NP life.

And reminding me to push up my specs and to tai tou ting xiong,

rest assured i'll remember to do that!!

i remember the 1st time i saw you,

i was like....

"what wierd hair style, does he live in the ninties or something?"

BUT!

now you look much much much much better!

jiayou for all your future endavours (i think the spelling is wrong)!

oh and, do let us know when you are getting married or have decided to give us a treat again.

ZAI JIAN LAH!

HELLO~~ MA'AM!

eheh, you're the smartest, coolest, sexiest, prettiest and cutest ma'am.

(taken from the video. ahaha)

anw, although i'm not very close with you,

cos i'm not in campcraft,

but i know that you're a really nice person.

Albiet abit dao and geng, ehehez.

anw, jiayouz for everything!

oh and the other time, during thursday's campcraft training,

i asked you if you cut your hair.

well, apparently you did, perhaps you thought i was like a complete idiot then.

like, DUH, of course you cut your hair,

why else would your hair decrease in lenght?

but i asked cos i wanna make sure of the person i saw was you.

what i wanna say was,

you look really different with short hair.

prettier and definately alot cooler.

yeps.

this is it, people.

we've moved on.

to everyone, must jiayou jiayou jiayou kays?

i'll like to end this with a quote.

From Oscar Wilde.

(in case you guys don't know who he is, he is one of my favourite poets and writers.)

Oscar Wilde once said, "Life's like a stage, but the play's badly cast."

For that, i'd like to say a huge sorry to the great Oscar Wilde.

because....

I DISAGREE!

indeed, my NP life was like a play.

An Oscar-winning, Putlizer-Prize-winning (if it was written into a book) play.

and all of you guys, the cast carefully hand-picked by God, have been fantabulous.

Thank you for all these years.

Although we started out fighting, we became really great friends.

for that, i thank all of you guys.

It was Fate that decreed us to be squadmate.

And our destiny was interwined from the very beginning of time.

we were'nt best of pals, but we were'nt just friends either.

we're squadmates.

win together, lose together, SQUADMATES.

I'll miss you guys.

WHO'S GAME FOR A FAREWELL PARTY AFTER THE 'O'S?!

RAISE YOU HAND!!!

*waves hand frantically*

2008-03-14T04:42:00.000-07:00

its the ~~beginning~~ end of the hols.
haiz.
a week passes so fast neh?

still have a bit of hw uncompleted.
emath hw!!
oh gosh.

tue had class BBQ at mavis' house,
pretty ok
wasn't expecting to see Mrs Chew and Mr Mok.
Mr Mok interrogated me!
over L1R5.
so no prob! ^^
they ponded suhuai, SK and kaijie
Johanna fell in the pool while trying to pond Suhuai!
:)

absolute hilarity!
Before the BBQ,
Nicole treated us to Swensens.
:D:D
EARTHQUAKE.
apparently the Earthquake was so formidable that that it caused an ENORMOUS whole in Nicole's wallet.
HAHAHA
now i'm waiting for Amanda's $1 ice-cream treat.
:D:D

after the BBQ the class rushed to the cinema to watch Rule #1.
Gave it a miss.
the movie was starting in 10mins!
I'll still miss the front part by the time I got there.

watched a new J-drama recently.
Liar Game.
starring Toda Erika and Matsuda Shota.
Its about some game that some rich old man hosted.

(very siao, must be too much money.)

1st round's rules are very simple.

the player given $100million and he is just supposed to use any kind of means to cheat his opponent of his money.

winner will get a $100million.

loser will get a debt of $100million,

cos when the game ends,

there will be someone to collect back the original amount that was given to the players.

so simple!

but apparently the female main lead(Toda Erika) was dumb enough to trust her opponent and handed all of the $100million over to him.

when she realised that she was cheated, she approached a genius swindler for help.

thats where Matsuda Shota came into the pic.

and the story goes....

i think its was not bad lah.

and its short. only 11eps.

this drama highlights the ugliness of human nature.

that lying and deceiving is all human nature.

"Being able to lie is a talent."

like, really?

Matsuda Shota's chracter is super smart.

He's so smart that I feel like hitting him on the head, screaming,

"Why the hell do you have to be so smart!!!!"

But,

Toda Erika's character is so ~~stupid~~ naive that i feel like slapping her.

hahax.

ok lah.

shall continue to PIA my hw.

frens who are reading this post, naughty naughty!

you guys are reading blogs instead of studying!!!

go study!

that means i'm in the wrong also right?

cos i'm blogging.

hahax.

oh wells.

i take this time to announce that my blog will soon undergo a stage of hiatus.

in lieu of the upcoming MYEs and the oh-so-important 'O's.

so, yep.

this might be like,

my last post till the the June hols,

where i will find time to post one more time.

then go into blog hibernation.

then after Prelims, 'O's blog again!

YAY!

yeps.

so dun miss me too much, eh?

gotta run,

tata ppl~

2008-03-02T01:42:00.001-08:00

hey hey!
yesterday was campcraft comp.

BUT...

it rained.

so its postponed to next week.

GORDON called Wanling when we were on the bus (ooohhhhhh.....)

and said some teachers, or was it instructors was appealing for HQ to continue with the comp.

like, UH, cos we were halfway home.

imagine of we had to turn back cos of them?

i swear till like, slap them or something.

went to T3 with my dear NP mates.

it was not as refreshing as the 1st time i went.

and i still think the food there is SUPER EX.

Leona, Noohoo, Wanling and I unamiously agreed that Mac's chilli sauce tasted like they added tea in it.

we were supposed to catch The Leap Years after that.

but somehow things changed last minute.

Yanling, Wanling and I headed to TM whilst the rest went home.

Yanling bought her Death Note!

Its the Misa edition.

Hmmmm..

Contemplating if I should buy.

If i buy then i'll have 1 set then,

since i already have Light's edition.

Maybe i should.

Hmmmm....

caught L: Change The World the 2nd time.

since Wanling and Yanling sponsered $2 off my ticket.

watching it the 2nd time made me realised i missed out alot of minute details when i watched it the 1st.

the guys sitting behind/beside us were really irritating.

whats with all the dumb comments?

"脱! 脱! 脱!"

"she airport runway, nothing to see lah."

"那个 zhar bo 喜欢他啦!"

like, walao!

so pervert can~

the she/zhar bo refers to the young girl(Maki)

and the 他 refers to L.

but then again, Wanling also thought she liked L.

hahax.

she's like 12? and L's like 22 (or at least 20plus)?

years-old, i mean.

And Leona/Noohoo, L is CUTE okay!

at least cuter than you guys lah.

hahas.

so mean..

i gotta go now!

tata~

and i think i wanna buy the Death Note.

2008-02-29T05:51:00.000-08:00

new skin ppl!!!

he's so so so cute.

i'm officially in love with him.

caught L:Change The World.

its was really good.

the plot is interesting.

its not about the Death Note now,

its about a virus weapon that kills anyone that comes into contact with it.

the small boy was really smart.

L spoke like, 4 laguages in the movie!

Jap, Eng, French and Spanish(or is it Italian?).

like woah.

his english was not bad lehx,

at least understandable, just that he spoke with a lisp.

must go watch.

L is really cute.

i'm performing on Founder's Day.

oh joy.

*faints in terrror*

cos of Youth Fellowship(YF).

we'll be singing "Freely Freely" on that day,

i'll try not to crack the windows in case we need to buy more calenders to make up for the loss.

*grins sheepishly*

the pitch is like, super high lah!

i wanna sing the guy part, its easier to sing.

LGL saw me,

then she was like, "Wah, Jolene. Since when you joined the church choir?"

CHURCH CHOIR?!

i was like, stunned lah.

Just cos i'm singing a Christian song does not mean i'm in a church choir.

do our sch have a church choir to begin with?

its getting late liao, so i gotta go!

tata~

2008-01-24T05:28:00.000-08:00

THE A1 SWALLOWED ME WHOLE.

extreme?
i was delirious with joy that i was acting a little mad thru the day.
hence i concluded that the A1 had indeed swallowed me whole.
and it didnt even leave a bone of me behind.
:D:D:D

once again, a new start.

2008-01-18T05:57:00.000-08:00

yes people.
i have finally decided to update this pathetic blog of mine.
i must say that i had really been a LONG time.
anws, here am i now,
ready to pull my blog out of its hiatus-y stage!
BUT!!!!
this year,
ahahaha...
so i will definitely go on a hiatus,
thats for sure.

ok!
taiwan was awesome.
really enjoyed myself there.
there hotel was small and somewhat old,
yet it gave me a really homely feel.
the hotel staff were really nice.
:)
everybody there is nice.
i rmbed that my family was trying to find our way to Rao He Ya Shi (yep, free-and-easy. transportation there is even more convenient than singapore)
then it seemed that we got lost,
and there was a guy who showed us all the way to the Ye Shi.
so nice right?
my fav place was probably the Jiu Fen.
it was the place where Bei Qing Cheng Shi was filmed ( a film starring Tony Leung).
the Gu Gong was another fav place of mine.
all the artefacts are so cool lah!
i like the Yu Bai Cai (Jade Cabbage).
shopping there was a blast.
but, me being me,
only bought the $100 kind of clothing.
TWD$100 = SGD$4.50
my most satisfying buy was the Ocarina.
otherewise known as Tao Di(porcelain flute).
so far only mastered 2songs.
happy birthday and twinkle twinkle little star.
so pathetic.
as i have more Wee genes than Ng genes(my dad was in the military band) lah,
so i'm apparently musical-boneless(took me 1whole year to learn to play a proper song on the guitar, haiz).
HAHAHA.

i'll post pics that i took there.
exciting stuff happened when i was there.
and i'm not referring to me chancing upon Bang Bang Tang.
but the taking down of the "Da Zhong Zhi Zhen".
took pics of the protests and even video-ed some exciting parts down.
show you guys next time.
that is,
when i have time.
hehe.

sch re-opened.
i'm still surviving.
no depression yet.
save for one small daignostic test.
ENGLISH.
this is the !st time i got so lousy marks for my compo.
16/30
like what is her problem?!
the best in my class was only a measly 18.
argh!
and the worst thing was....
SHE SAID MY HANDWRITING WAS ILLEGIBLE!!!
she was the 1st teacher who said that.
seriously.
she wrote " your (insert a sqiggly word which i cant make out what it is) concern should be legible handwriting."
GOD.
this is the worst insult i can take.
her reason for "illegible handwriting" was....
"its too small."
HELLO!
small does NOT equal to illegibility!!!

nvm that she gave me LOW marks.
nvm that she criticised my handwriting.
nvm if she said that me saying "walao" is un-ladylike.
she actually wrote on my paper "you have the potential to be better than this."
like, what are you trying to say?
that i didnt put in enough effort?

and she told poor Nicole that she was beating around the bush in her essay.

enough of her.
more of cheerful stuff.
like..
erm.

NEW SONG!
:D:D
Ti Amo by Arron Yan and Liu Li Shang.
i like her voice.
its sounds like Tong En.

its getting late plus there's air rifle tomorrow.
sooooo...
i'll write to here then.

TILL NEXT TIME!

2007-12-01T20:23:00.000-08:00

hello ppl!!!
i'll be missing for 8days.
TAIWAN HERE I COME!!!!
:D:D:D

keep me posted if anything crops up, kays??
ciao-ciao!!!
:)

2007-11-21T01:10:00.000-08:00

new song!!
幸而 by 胡杏儿.

剧集乱世佳人主题曲
作曲:邓智伟
填词:陈诗慧
演唱:胡杏儿
当天身体贴近
深深爱那用问
假使心声听到你会否
舍弃告别埋没我心
深刻的教训
仿佛对你没恨
怎么偷泣到凌晨难就寝
天色不必再暗
仿佛这叫命运
毕竟当天你也会有心
舍弃辈份营造气氛
怎么不配衬
苦海里也自问
兜兜转转碰到某某君仍愿意等
若未抛开未能去爱
然而分开仍能记载
当天原来伤心何来
心根本依然从未放开
未愿抛开幸而有爱
原来精彩才能记载
当天何来伤心坐大门外
假使不可占据
抽空与我叙叙
尽管今天你与那某君
相爱既定无谓再追
早应该撒退
好好再次入睡
怎么总想到你会凝泪水
风干的心已碎
怎可叫我入睡
不甘抛开最爱既远走
相爱注定无奈告吹
天生的配对
怎么会背负罪
不想死心勉强
要爱长埋在废墟
其实愿捱下去因我当时
总算拥有快乐我知
在意谁曾被你重视
可惜从来根本没存在

enjoy! ^^

2007-11-19T00:02:00.001-08:00

hey ppl!!
*waves frantically*

its been a long time i've updated..

went to zouk wif michelle, lijing and lisa!

dun get me wrong,

no hanky-panky.

i can assure.

so then,

you might ask,

why are we there?

the truth is,

we are there for the FLEA!

not the flea-kind-of-flea,

but a flea market.

it was a HUGE place with 2-3 levels,

and it was packed wif ppl!

talk about ren shan ren hai!

but it was really a great sale there wif much stuff to purchase.

i personally bought 3tops and a skirt(lijing thinks the skirt is too colourful).

and 5bangles for $1!

like, woah.

michelle bought a helleluva lot of stuff..

i really take my hat off to her.

there were books, but they dun interest me.

they all look like the typical romance kind of novels.

i go for supernatural! :D

and yes,

i would like to offer a piece of advice here.

that is to never EVER trust streetdirectory.com!

cos it was like, crap la.

it stated to take to somerset MRT.

and then?

Zouk was like practically at the other end of singapore can?!

AND WHY THE HELL DID IT NOT STATE WHICH HOLIDAY INN IS IT SUPPOSED TO BE?!

then instead of going to Holiday Inn something(i forget the exact name) we ended up at Holiday Inn Park View.

and opposite Holiday Inn Park View,

was nothing but ROADS.

hahaha. so it was essentially safe to say that we were on a wild goose chase.

nonetheless, we had a great time!

although i nearly died of heart attack when i realised i dropped my wallet.

BUT!

all's well ends well.

the nice stallholder(considered as stallholder right?) picked up my wallet and kept it for me.

so i managed to get it back!

hard to find ppl like this nowadays.

just took my amath re-exam.

i think it was okay,

not say VERY diff,

but like EOYs like that lor.

the amusing fact was,

there was no graph Qs,

yet they gave us graph paper.

so this led to me believing that there was a Q on graphs which i was positive the sotong me had left out.

so i searched for that non-existant Q.

then when i cant find it,

i thought i had a faulty paper.

it turned out,

that there wasnt even a graph Q in the 1st place!

-.-

what a waste of graph paper.

and my precious time.

AND my sanity!

i swear that i'll turn "off-centre" one of these days,

all because of my sch.

oh yes!

my bday!

how could i forget something so important!

:D
although it was a LLLOOONNNGGGG time ago,

i would still like to thank:

-my mum for the kawaii watch

-my aunt for that preeetty watch(ALSO!)

-my dad for that 2 blue-coloured money notes (ehehehe. you noe what i'm hinting at right?)

-my grandma for her ang-pao

-my granpa for the 2 books(YAY!)

-my bro for the F.I.R CD(sorry lah, i know ur pig cost less, but muz u be so money-minded?!)

-michelle for her alarm colock(are you hinting that i'm owaz late? haha)

-michelle's mum for the generous ang-pao(u shouldn't have)

-amanda and zhaolin for that beautiful necklace and card.

-yee ee dearest for being the 1st from KCS to wish me happy bday( i miss you!)

-my DEAR DEAR NP MATES for singing the bday song!

and others such as(in no order of favourites):

-yiuyiu

-zhiqi

-trinda

-yipeng

-phyllis

-yongcai

and so on so forth.

yep,

i hope that this long post will mi bu for the long period of time which i did not blog!